Making (by Rebecca Chasteen) Friday, Dec 4 2009 

(I’m still not sure that I’m happy with this yet…)

I know
I
can’t be quiet,
can’t doze in nothing

because it’s suffocating quicksand
it’s poison
I’ve been there
before

I can’t do
mute
or numb-
I would rather feel too much
than not enough

I can’t
do complacent

or compliant

I can’t be conformist

I can’t
just take it
without making it mine

I’m fighting this slumber,
this wave of warm lies
that it’s fine,
it’s fine to sleep
to let someone else do for me-
because I know it’s not

I know it’s one step away
from losing everything

I feel so lost-
something shifted and silence rolled in;
unsettling quiet,
a muting-
without my words

I have to move
I have to make
something
I can’t wait
there are already cobwebs
setting up shop

I.
can’t.
sleep.

I.
can’t.
stop.

Back Road (by Rebecca Chasteen) Tuesday, Nov 17 2009 

I’m so sorry I keep hanging on

I’m gonna try

another time

to drop this

right where it is

to let you

be

as you are

without

insisting I’m important

without try to make a “we” in any way

you speak with silence

measured politeness

you don’t need to hear from me

I’m just lack of self control

I’m just a quick drive on a back road

A rush

the leftovers of a crush

it’s all irrelevant

I’m trying again

to hold my hope in

I pretend it’s weights on your feet

like it matters

what I have inside

You’ve almost made it clear

that you don’t want in here

I’m sorry

I keep trying

Tuesday, Nov 3 2009 

This will be my first non-poetry post on this site, but I am attempting to participate in Nanowrimo and PAD Chapbook Challenge  for the first time (each) so, it may be a while before I post anything new. Or it may not. I have no idea!

Death Party (by Rebecca Chasteen) Monday, May 18 2009 

For today’s prompt, I want you to write a poem with an interaction of some sort. The interaction does NOT have to be between people, though it can.

Death Party

There’s a layer
of pretense
over each handshake
and nod,

everyone
holding on to social norms
to keep them
from flinging themselves
on the floor,

at the coffin
much too small.
They should never
have to be that small…

voices fall off of each other-
too quiet,
too loud,
there’s no comforting sound

besides
a wail-
outrage,
heartbreak;
it’s the only thing that really feels okay.

Graveside now,
it’s almost time (if you can figure out how)
to stop wearing
that hostess face.

I think this one may be unfinished as well, it feels like it could go another stanza or so, I’m not sure, I may revise it later.

http://blog.writersdigest.com/poeticasides/2009/04/18/AprilPADChallengeDay18.aspx

the love he told me (by Rebecca Chasteen) Thursday, May 14 2009 

Today is Tuesday, which means two prompts.

First prompt: Write a love poem. Or,

Second prompt: Write an anti-love poem.

the love he told me

this guy i had coffee with said that love is all the same.
that it all springs from the same place, that it
only matters what we do with it, how we
give it, use it, hold it, move it. i just nodded because
i always thought there were so many different loves that
i’d never considered just one. and now i see he was saying

the same thing. he just changed all my worries that i never
loved anyone enough since i’d spread out my love so much. now,
i see how i fold each heart into mine, how i carry
with me every one. how i choose how i show what i show of
all the love i now know is just the same

thing we all chase, we all have already. it’s just
tap into it, it’s just open it, it’s just hold it, it’s just
what he said.

http://blog.writersdigest.com/poeticasides/2009/04/14/AprilPADChallengeDay14.aspx

Fridays Then, Fridays Now (by Rebecca Chasteen) Sunday, May 10 2009 

For today’s prompt, I want you to write a poem about Friday. Do you like Fridays? Despise Fridays? Of course, you can also write about something that happened on a Friday–or write an ode to Fridays. Or, as you know, I’m all for seeing you attack this from an angle I haven’t thought of yet.

Fridays Then, Fridays Now

Fridays were
G movies
with mom and Rachel,
air popped popcorn
with melted butter
soggying up
a few
best pieces
that we would scramble our little hands
to get

Fridays were
sitcoms,
and sleepovers,
too much shock tart candy,
Mad Libs,
and making Ouija boards
out of Lisa Frank desk sets

Fridays were
getting mom to drop me off
at the dollar movies
and pick me up 30 minutes after the movie ended
so I could hang out
flirting, acting grown and cool
(until I crawled into the blue
and wood-paneled station wagon)

Fridays were
football games,
boyfriends,
and scrawling their names
beside ours
with hearts
then inevitably marking them through
to make room for the new

Fridays were
dates
ice cream sundaes
parked cars
a dozen little beginnings,
just as many endings

Fridays were
loud,
blurry,
expensive
indulgences
with friends that
also didn’t go away
for college

One Friday
was the wedding rehearsal

Fridays were
falling asleep (mom-to-be)
watching MTV
while Jason worked 3rd.
Or I would stare into
internet worlds
with an old classmate’s
music page filling the silence
with something I never could manage to hold

Fridays are
G movies
with my husband and Natalie
we do pizza
that leaves soggy marks on paper plates
and has me scrambling
to wipe little hands
before they grab my arm-
or my couch.

http://blog.writersdigest.com/poeticasides/2009/04/10/AprilPADChallengeDay10.aspx

Consequence (by Rebecca Chasteen) Saturday, Jan 3 2009 

What makes a girl fight for, then turn against herself?
like there’s no one else…
what gene is that?

or is it something about middle school boyfriends,
rooms with exposed rafters
and scratchy couches
and no one to stop her
but something her pastor
and the health ed teacher had said

it’s all so cliché, the friends with beers in the basement,
dads stoned at the bar
moms believing there are children still-

a future flashed between shorts on the ground and everything else
it was the least of any dream
for a (little) girl
not quite ready to give it all up

and following
the breakup and the rumors,
the responsibility for who you want to be
is so blatantly yours
it’s impossible to think anyone else will bear this
it’s inescapable;

consequence